i hate my leave..

4:15 pm 11122011


my leave was approved. supposed to attend a cosplay event kso ng dahil sa sakit ko, di na ko tumuloy. so no work and more time alone at home. no one to talk to. just my blog. with the laptop. speakers. alone in my room. playing sad songs.


i hate days like this. nothing to do. 


yan tuloy kung anu anu pinagagagawa ko..


this moment?.


i read my blog. i cried as the memories flashbacks. don't have anything to do.
just staring our picture together. with background music. first love by boyz2men. na inintroduce nia din sken. and cry. again.


yes..everyday i'm checking his fb wall. all the links. all the wall posts. 
and i'm sorry, i can't stop myself.


i really missed him so bad. everyday. every hour. every minute. every second. too weird?. yes i'm weird..


and what's hurting me the most?


i heard that he's one of those who will get fired in our company..hope not.. i already consulted it to GOD, hope he respond positively. to the answer that i want. sorry LORD :)


i'm so selfish. 


4:30 pm