no one..

Weak.. that's what I am now. Controlled by my freak and nasty emotions about love. I can say that I'm a different person now and that is not good. I let emotions, love, passion control me. I wanted to be free. Free to let myself decide what I want and who/what will control my life.. Oh no.. no one must control my life, but how can i? I'm weak. I let myself do what others have just told, I let them decide for me. 

I feel like I have no one now. No one to talk to about stuffs, simple and small. I can't tell no one how my day was, how's my hike went, what happened during my call, who i met, who i've talked to, what I feel about today, what I eat, how was it.

 Yes, I very often tell someone how I feel, I don't want to let them know, unless they ask.

Maybe that's the problem with me, I'm selfish.

I feel alone, so alone..

PS. 

  I don't really know where is this coming from, but I'm glad I wrote this down. This is the only thing that's left to talk to when I have no one.. this shit.. oh this sheet of page to be posted publicly.