emotionally tired..

today...

I feel tired, emotionally tired. 

Punong puno na ko.

I can't even explain why am I feeling this..this awful feeling..

Maybe I'm just too tired of being controlled, managed by someone that i love.

Those moments when he calls you 'bobo', 'tanga', 'walang alam', BITCH.. kahit na biro lang sa kanya, still you get hurt because you're not use to it, not with the someone you love.

Those moments na ikaw na ung kasama niya tumitingin pa siya sa iba. Thinking that he's not contented and I'm NOT ENOUGH.

For the first time in my life, I let him to become the boss, doing all the things that he wants to do, commanding everything that he says.

He's not open with suggestions, he will just get mad at you. He's moody.

He gets mad on simple, small things.

I'm tired, super tired but I don't wanna give up. We're just starting this relationship and I want it to last.

I just want someone to be proud of having me, and hindi ko sa kanya naramdaman yun.

fvck,